Friday, March 4

So Fearful

These are harrowing times.
Gom has been hospitalised four times, since 23rd Dec, 2010.

He loathes Hospital, even though the Nurses are all Angels, and he is given great care.

He mistrusts the food. He tries to get me to eat his plates of food. I do not take up his offers. I do love vegetables, which he does not! (The Pumpkin Soup was divine.) I do eat some of the Sweet potato, and the beans, which are very nice. He does not wish to taste the Veal something, though it looks, and smells, nice. The Chicken Apricot is rejected, as is the mashed pototo, and the beans, once again. (which were actually quite nice, & tasty!!)

His neighbouring bed mate has eaten all of his food. Gom has left all but a slice of bread, and a Yoghurt.

As this is his fourth admission since late December, and they feel he will keep on needing  further treatments, involving transfusions and long hours spent in ED, and consequently various Ward Admissions, 'They' wish to perform a 'Proceedure" which could halt the condition. IE, the bleeding into his stomach.

This 'Proceedure' cannot be performed at our Local Hospital. It involves transfer, and admission to RPA,  (I believe this stands for the Royal Prince Alfred) which is a large Sydney Hospital. We have trepidatious feelings about this transfer,  and subsequent surgery,  As I post, we have not been given a great deal of information, about this proceedure, or the risks involved.

A Nurse finally told us, that the transfer would not take place this evening. We had been waiting for the Doctor to give us a further update.
I spent the whole day at the Hospital, awaiting word, on what was to happen to Gom. Late evening a Nurse finally gave us some answers. It is the only failing in the system.
We are not advised often enough, or, in enough detail. The Doctor who came to advise Gom of the Proceedure, did not elaborate, nor detail what might be involved.

I was horrified to learn that Gom would be discharged in the Central City location of this Hospital, after treatment and perhaps subsequent after care.l. I cannot possibly collect Gom from this location. I will have to get either our son, or our son in law to collect Gom. It is all very distressing.

I am fearful that Gom won't return from this proceedure. On the other hand, he is very tired of all that he has had to endure, to remain, even half agreeable to us, as a family, I sometimes think Fate may hold the answers.... or perhaps, the winning cards.

Tomorrow is another day, and we are hoping for some ansers, and some positive news.

Life, at present is a SeeSaw, and we have no way to gauge the outcome.


Queen , You take my breath away.


29 comments:

Harmany Quilting said...

Thinking of you Meggie

Nicola in West Australia

Karen said...

Oh Meggie! My heart goes out to you and GOM. Thinking of you.

Jess said...

Dear, dear Meggie - I hold you in my heart, even from so far away...

Molly said...

Sorry to hear you're going through such stressful times Meggie.Hope everything will work out for the best. It's infuriating, over here too, how little information the medical profession gives you, when you are the person who has the greatest need, and right, to know all the details!

Connie said...

This is all quite distressing for you, and I hold you in my thoughts. Do try to remain strong and encouraged, my friend.

Nadine said...

Dear Meggie, I'm so in thoughts with you and GOM ! Heartful thoughts to you, from my little corner...
(Oh and THAt song ! it is sooo moving. I can understand why you chose it). BIG (((HUG)))

XOXOXOXOXOXO
NADINE

ancient one said...

Thinking of you and GOM... praying for you both...XOXOXOXO (((hugs)))

Bren said...

The opposite of fear is peace, and that is what I am praying for you (I know you are ok with me praying) and know I am thinking of you too!

marigold jam said...

Poor you, poor GOM, My thoughts and prayers are with you. Wish there was something I could do or say but as it is just know I'm thinking about you and praying for the best.

Jane x

lgsquirrel said...

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I pray that God gives you and GOM peace and assurance and many more angels to help you along the way.

Thimbleanna said...

Oh Meggie. I'm hoping tomorrow will be an easier day. Sending you big hugs!

Angie said...

Oh God, Meggie, I am just so sad for both of you. I wish I were physically closer to you...want to wrap my arms around you and tell you to hang on tight. There are no words for such dastardly situations, so I hope that you can sense the love and anguish I feel for you both. Keeping you close in my heart....

Kathy's Klothesline said...

I am so sorry you are facing such a dilemma. I often think that it is harder to watch the one we love most suffer than to suffer ourselves. I am sending good thoughts your way and praying for peace for you both. Take care, Meggie.

Linds said...

Meggie, I am thinking of you and saying a prayer for strength and peace for you both. I know. I know. One moment at a time. Lots of love, sweet friend, and a huge hug.

Ali Honey said...

Big Hugs Meggie - I can't offer any useful advice. I hope this all resolves with a suitable outcome and that Gom can be helped. (he needs to eat though....bring him something from home that he trusts?? )
Queen are fabulous - especially Briam May - he really smart too.

Pauline said...

keeping you and GOM tucked in my prayersleeve, meggie.

Cathi said...

I'm thinking of you and hoping that it all goes well for you and Gom.

anne bebbington said...

Thinking of you all Meggie - the lack of succinct communication is the failing of health services worldwide and while prevalent still totally unacceptable - sending you (((hugs))) from the other side of the world

Stomper Girl said...

Poor you and poor GOM. . Does not sound good at all.

Mary said...

Oh dear meggie, you and gom are in my thoughts ...wishing you strength and courage and some quiet moments to regather both..

quiltmom said...

Sending you warm positive thoughts today. May you find yourself surrounded by loved ones who can support you when feel that need..
Warmest regards,
Anna

Jellyhead said...

Meggie, consider yourself hugged from afar. I hope you find all the endurance you need to get through this awful time.
xoxo Jelly

persiflage said...

Dear Meggie, I hav e emailed you, and hope you are ok. Let me know if you need a bed, if the transfer takes place. I know the anxiety and the uncertainty. Beds and hugs I have.

Katie said...

Will be thinking of you and Gom.

Sheila said...

How miserable for you both!
And stressful too.
The doctors do sound a little too vague, hopefully they can enlighten you as to what they plan to do.
Knowing what will happen at least help you face what is to be done, and know what to expect.
I will be thinking of you both and sending good wishes your way.
Hugs
xx

Ulrike said...

Dear Meggie, I am thinking of you and GOM. You have sure had a pretty tough start to the year, but I hope it helps a little that you are in their hearts and prayers of your friends, including those in blogland. xx

Christine Thresh said...

The food from home is a pretty good idea and it may appeal to GOM. I hope so.
Your friends in all corners of the world are thinking about you. We wish you both peace and comfort.

Isabelle said...

Oh Meggie, I'm so sorry. I hope things go better than you fear.

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