I had been going to do a post about grief. I am living, an anniversary of a grief, which I still feel I have not properly dealt with, in 'real' time.
It is a very stange emotion to deal with in our lives. I suspect everyone has their own particular agenda, on the 'grief scale', for want of a better term.
I suffered an emotional meltdown/breakdown, (call it what you will) some years ago, over a seemingly trivial event. I could not understand it at the time. It was explained to me, that it was the result of a build-up of several events, a sort of emotional 'straw that broke the Camel's back'.
As it happened it was a female 'fill-in' GP who pointed out to me, the links. I was surprised, to realise the truth in her observations.
My regular GP was a very nice man. A gentle man. He was always somewhat discomfitted by overt displays of grief. I always felt he disliked seeing women cry, & his wife attested to the truth of that observation.
I felt sorry for him, when I cried, & upset his equalibrium. I knew he had problems of his own. Due to his wife's candid nature, I was aware of his grief over his beloved daughter's sudden uncharacteristic behaviour.
This resulted in me trying desperately not to add to his distress. I tried hard, to suppress my griefs. I can see that, with hindsight.
I had suffered a couple of cancer scares. One proved to be unfounded, the tumour is benign they assure me. I believe them, for if it is not, I would surely be dead by now!!
The other was 'cured' by surgery, & removal of all danger. Physical at least. The mental may not have completely gone.
On to other items. On to Free Treats.
Veronica, gave me this Friendship Award.
Thankyou Veronica, for this. I urge you all to take a look at Veronica's wonderful blog.
Everyone knows I am a notorious rule breaker, so if you would like this award, please take it. All on my blogroll are friends. All I ever visit are friends in the blogosphere. Please feel free to take & share!!
This next photo is for Veronica.How I wish you could eat a slice- before Gom gobbles the lot!!
This is a Passionfruit Sponge I made today. In the interests of Gom's health, I cut the cake in half, & gave the other half to my Daughter & her family.
I know this dates me, but I do not care. I am proud of all the ages I am!!
Carly Simon, Coming Aroung Again.