Wednesday, March 22


I have been so pleasantly surprised, and heartened to read comments on my stale old blog! How lovely to think people might still remember me, and read my odd posts.

These last few weeks have been very trying, as far as weather is concerned. The humidity is almost unbelievable! Breathing is well nigh impossible as  one feels like one is drowning. The sweat factor for scalps, and facial features, is unbelievable. I have been taking a drug for my heart, that I have discovered, accentuates this terrible condition. I have told the GP 'I will no longer take said drug'. So, I am prescribed something else. Hmm Not sure it is better.

There is a part of me that wonders why my heart keeps on beating, at it's erratic fashion. Why doesn't it just cease? And the lungs fill with air.  What is that about? why don't they just give up? Quit while they are ahead? It is a very complex affair, this 'being alive.' I don't really understand why the body doesn't just quit, while it is ahead. Who wants to be some mindless shell?

I am very fortunate. i have a roof over my head, I have a comfortable bed, I have warmth, or, more importantly, coolth when I need it. This humidity costs me a small fortune to combat, but at least I have the means to counteract.

I can cook, or not, when i get hungry. I can have cold, or hot food. I have a microwave, an oven, and cooktop. I am blessed with many conveniences. Sometimes I wonder, do I give enough thanks for these things, that so many in the world, do not have.

I sometimes think I need to share my mild fortune with others. I don't have surplus, but I have enough. I am willing to share that.

I would hate to come across as a sanctimonious bitch. there such a thing??... forbid. I just want to try to help those whose path has deviated from the 'norm'. the path less travelled.  They deserve to be respected, just like you and I. 

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